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dunam

i feel an endless tract of silence inside. like there might just be nothing left.

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turtle

i cant breathe. i need this headache to go away. i need to sleep and not have nightmares i need to slip away and not be missed and just release finally. into empty space of nothing more.

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puke

my head is pounding pounding pounding. i am drowning slowly more each day. id like to speed it up. it’s really awful like this. i can barely breathe and don’t really want to anymore.

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road to nowhere.

i think i will always doubt myself until i hold truth in my hands.

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air conditioner fail

i remember driving there so clearly with the twists and the turns and the cliffs not far off holding and dragging and lifting like a mule… kept going and pushing in hopes of a chance that never came. but man, … Continue reading

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breakneck with

its always a little better like this. easier simpler blurrier. blurrier is good. id like to be on a hike now, stepping on rock climbing over mountain burning my muscles to a point of perfection then sitting on top, taking … Continue reading

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one million dollars.. hehehe

i’m panicking. already. it’s all too much. the numbers. the things to deal with. the lack of humanity or basic consideration. i wish i didn’t dislike this world so much. i wish i felt better about the people in it. … Continue reading

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