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life in a plastic bag

this is too hard. it’s just always like this. it always comes down to the same thing and i never have a way out. i wish i was something else. i really don’t like what i am and no matter … Continue reading

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hoofbeats

im so cut up right now. in so many ways. shambles he says. i say burn burn burn.. i feel the pain but mostly in spirit, im adjacent to reality at times, except for the rest- when im sunk right … Continue reading

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cinderellas complex

i dont like feeling like this. this exhausted, worn, worked rag, whos doing good, but somehow is never, good enough.

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ywnpmp

sometimes things happen that make me think and feel and miss so much. and if only it was simply a remembrance, it might be ok. but its tainted with love.. each and every time.

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melting glass

i ate reeses pieces tonight. after i had another panic attack. i dont know what to do exactly. i think its just a lot. i feel like i need to sleep for a week. and my energy is really weird. … Continue reading

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g gavin ugh

im having a panic attack. it just started. i have no idea why. sometimes i just wish, that i could put myself on pause.

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waif

im too skinny. and i get scared. and im really very alone. and i dont know if thats gonna change. i just want to go home. i just want to go home.

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the upper hand.

had a nightmare last night i still cant shake it. same result, just disguised in coercion.. scared the hell out of me. sometimes i feel absolutely powerless.. thats all.

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5 am

i was just awoken by a hand on my hip. my right hip. i had only just been waiting to have my case heard. they were trying others first and i was waiting, thinking,, this, this is really nuts. i … Continue reading

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For you

Hug.

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