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let me do the haunting

im feeling self destructive and i dont care anymore that i dont care, im off on this path now and it just doesnt matter. my life is not my own it has no success and never has. i used to … Continue reading

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even the music is there

had all these dreams last night. woke up like three times from them and that’s besides this morning. i struggle between wanting to never see that face again and pulling the blanket back over mine, so i can sink back … Continue reading

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sad and stupid with nothing to show for any of it.

i don’t know what to do. if i had a way to say it i would. though it wouldn’t make a difference at all. if i had a way to shake it up, and i thought it would bear results,, … Continue reading

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no more

there’s little further humiliation. i don’t even care anymore. i have been proven again and again shown my lack of worth. those that haunt me never leave and i, i am stuck with me and the reminders of them. i … Continue reading

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Making the deal

I was always right. Not because I’m impressive. Or even smart. Just because I am an expert On my life. I care about nothing. Really really nothing. I’m looking to score the best business deal I can. And I’m being … Continue reading

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stars and adventures and terrible terrible truths

im so sad. i feel so much pressure. imminent pressure. places, people, feelings, other peoples feelings.. ugh. im so tired. i dont like any of it. im so exhausted. im ready to stop. i had this dream last night. it … Continue reading

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all the same whoring

i would sell my friends. i said that. thats awful. but really, how much can they be worth if i cant survive. and i cant.

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Still.

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stilted jump into the end

i think i might be dead. partially at least. otherwise this would all be a lot more painful than it seems. i think i might have died, a bit of a ways back.. i still fill my quota of earthly … Continue reading

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