Monthly Archives: September 2020

theres nothing in the world that i like quite as much as this. the cool breeze through the window, as autumn slowly sets in.. the sweet navy of night with the sound of rain outside.. a slight swell of wet … Continue reading →

its amazing the lives ive lived. none of them good and i would not do any again. there was a moment there, where i had started to believe, where i thought i had a chance, where i was convinced that … Continue reading →

im so not ok. im glad its the end. my resolutions are none. i just must go. i shed her completely i hate that she existed and when she goes there will be relief.

life is so hard and im so soft. and theres nothing in between, shielding me from its edges. i slowly get more scars is all.

theres some comfort you know, in memories. a beauty unmatched in what is. it behooves me to think though, that if it didnt have to be, then it just becomes mourning to me.

im so tired im just so tired. i keep repeating over and over im just so tired. i dont remember not being tired and i cant imagine any amount of sleep will cure this. im so tired. so terribly tired. … Continue reading →

i wonder if you can offer a half a heart.. or perhaps, you just say nothing at all.

im so scared and so tired. so very very tired.

im so tired. i wonder if i wont ever be.

the panic is astounding. though im not really sure why. its been bad recently but this just takes the cake. my heart is racing a million miles a minute and i, everything i try just isnt enough.