Monthly Archives: July 2020

i didn’t forget. i never will. that’s all.

theres a life that goes on here in my space, with unclicked ads from places i subscribed to, for the perfect item, or the greatest adventure, in a masterful seeking for the one that i loved.   i had all … Continue reading →

ive nothing to say anymore. ive accepted all. ive stopped fighting. there was only one thing i had any fight in me left for anyway and for the moment at least theres a reprieve. i no longer have wants i … Continue reading →

it’s early morning and im only half awake, i dreamt weird dreams last night again. i think im processing things in my sleep cause ive no time to while awake.. there used to be a dance uniform store downtown and … Continue reading →

i am so terribly sad. im trying to find a way around it but i think im too far gone… i cant be ok like this happiness isnt even a thought, i draw lines around my smiles all pointing to … Continue reading →

my head still hurts.  

i can only be like this. and be even a little ok. i hiked so hard today i stopped feeling it. i threw up again tonight. nothing is mine. not even the food i consume. my head is twisted in … Continue reading →

i just smiled a smile that i haven’t smiled in some time. i know it’s temporary but it’s the most wonderful feeling. weird that i can still do that. and just from reading. i think I’ll never understand that power.

i want to say a million things. but I have no one to say them to. i cry a lot. im way too skinny. and I’m so so so so so so sad. ive given up on dreams and notions … Continue reading →

every day goes by in haze as i wait for it all just to end.