i don’t know what to do.

if i had a way to say it

i would.

though it wouldn’t make a difference at all.

if i had a way to shake it up,

and i thought it would bear results,,

i still would.

even though,

it is

consistently

at the cost

of my own pride.

ive long ago

given up thinking

that i,

have anything to be proud of.

just keep everyone happy.

and love in silence,

ive become really good

at both those things.

i guess that’s it for now.