Monthly Archives: April 2020

had a nightmare last night i still cant shake it. same result, just disguised in coercion.. scared the hell out of me. sometimes i feel absolutely powerless.. thats all.

i was just awoken by a hand on my hip. my right hip. i had only just been waiting to have my case heard. they were trying others first and i was waiting, thinking,, this, this is really nuts. i … Continue reading →

Hug.

i am learning to be quiet. theres much to say, if i felt there was a point.. theres much to feel, but i rarely let myself anymore.. theres always noise but thats all it is at this point, and theres … Continue reading →

i have a great idea for a book. problem is, I’m going to have to do it without the other author. it won’t be as good, but oh well.

that feeling when someone can make you feel loved and precious… for no reason other than, that’s what they see when they look at you.. that, is a really, really, good feeling. so good. so so so good.

im good. this was good. i am grateful. 🙂

i feel like im living in a tunnel. this is all so surreal. ive been feeling things very strongly and find myself reviewing things, but trying not to obsess, cause thats just a death spiral in these here times… im … Continue reading →

this is a lot of alone. everyone is reaching out. i live in a weird place. this makes it weirder. i don’t really mind being alone. or in, really, but i would like to go on a hike. like a … Continue reading →

im tired. and so lonely. i just want to crawl into my fathers arms. thats all i want. nothing more.