Monthly Archives: March 2020

i love being like this.if i could be more I would.its wonderful to be free.i don’t care if I don’t make sense.I don’t care about anything really.except what realy counts.and that is not anything exceptmy home.and i work really really … Continue reading →

i want to say things and i cant. or im held back by propriety or rules. unspoken rules. i can do stuff, i can be there. i can help. i care. i want to help. cause whether it is or … Continue reading →

i want to hold someones hand. i desperately want to hold someones hand. id like to be sitting in a chair, or on a sofa, or the floor.. and i just want them to reach out and take my hand. … Continue reading →

it’s really hard not to know what to do. im pretending to be all brave but im not really. im just me. and i, am just really little and really alone. and im not sure that that’s the best combination.

im doing a puzzle. we’ve been working at it steadily. it has dragons and rainbows and castles and waterfalls and a little cottage with white unicorns. all the good things you know… it’s a world id like to live in.. … Continue reading →

i wish i could not get like i get.. with my brain spinning like a drunken spool and my mind racing, imagining creating every horrific possibility there could be. and judging. judging me and all i am down to every … Continue reading →

this is a lot. im grateful for what i have. for the people i have been able to help and the people that love me so. this is a test. i know it is. i hope i pass. im not … Continue reading →

something good. its something good.

so alone in this vast world. a fish in a pond. with men with lines lots and lots of lines… and there am i just searching for a home, avoiding the hook and possibly my life for fear of death … Continue reading →

it takes so much to produce so little and yet, im the one that with so little can produce so much. i, am utterly perplexed. and have no idea, what anything means anymore.