Monthly Archives: February 2020

air conditioner fail

i remember driving there so clearly with the twists and the turns and the cliffs not far off holding and dragging and lifting like a mule… kept going and pushing in hopes of a chance that never came. but man, … Continue reading

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breakneck with

its always a little better like this. easier simpler blurrier. blurrier is good. id like to be on a hike now, stepping on rock climbing over mountain burning my muscles to a point of perfection then sitting on top, taking … Continue reading

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one million dollars.. hehehe

i’m panicking. already. it’s all too much. the numbers. the things to deal with. the lack of humanity or basic consideration. i wish i didn’t dislike this world so much. i wish i felt better about the people in it. … Continue reading

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stress test

id like to give myself to science. here is a person, who’s feelings ate up her body. this is what’s left. have fun boys and girls. have fun.

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one day in and calling it a day.

im so tired and hate this life so much. im overwhelmed and so so sad. i want to want things but i dont have the energy to. not an opportunity is missed to put me in my place. and what … Continue reading

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honest

i am so deeply sad. this loneliness is horrifying. i dont know how to spread myself in a way that receives at all. im shakey again and forget how much i hate looking in the mirror. i need sleep but … Continue reading

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island.

im not cut out to be like this. im meant to be cultivated, loved, kept, held, in loving hands and loving heart.. busy often tired often, but happy always. in request of seed, in need of rain appreciating the sun … Continue reading

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