Monthly Archives: January 2020

im not sure what to do with these nights that turn into these mornings that im not sure what to do with.

its cold and wet and im lost and displaced and feel i might never find my way.

i have nothing to write. no words no voice no feelings even… it’s too much and too little all at once. but i need to keep going don’t i? i am so tempted by so many things right now, and … Continue reading →

i wish i could just shrug it off and go have fun for once in my life.. but no. no matter how many times ive learnt, that being good or being what everyone else wants you to be, or listening … Continue reading →

it matters not what i want, or how i choose to live, where i place my sodden boots or when and what to give.. it’s merely a swift crossing wind that blows our lives each way beyond which point of … Continue reading →

i wish i was in the snow. i don’t want to be here. i want to go home. and be. in my own cave. but im not allowed. and if i did, nothing would ever change, and ive failed and … Continue reading →

i have so little to say.. im not feeling much. im just putting one foot in front of the other and following as best i can. at this point, there’s not much else i can do.

im sad and displaced and the world is spinning around me like a drunken planet and i, i am wandering through, tilting, weaving, like someone that has so completely lost their way that they no longer have footing at all and … Continue reading →