this is better.

lighter

looser

way less hysterical.

im really tired of myself.

i should just say yes to someone and see where it takes me,

get off the ride of texts and notes

and allow for a face to face.

im a scaredy cat.

for a lot of good reasons.

but also,

because i dont really want to know…

and thats the truth.

besides, my rules are different than everyone elses.

i need to go back a couple hundred years.

minus the pogroms,

and the lack of washing machines.

also, i think antibiotics are really great.

either way,

id still like my own willow tree.

one day,

my person

will get me that.

now that,

sounds perfect.