you know?

its the strangest thing.

none of them care.

im so ridiculously open

and forward.

too much.

way too much.

because i think i need to be

because i have deficits right?

its what makes me not enough..

but not one has cared.

not one.

and theyre all

biting at the bit

and i dont know what to do with any of it.

apparently certain things are commodities

and theyre all of that same pool.

cause im fishing in the same pool.

and im more confused than ever.

i wish i wanted things anymore

i wish i had even a small part of that feeling left,

and i wish

i wasnt so utterly convinced,

that i-

am worthless.