Monthly Archives: December 2019

stupid soup and other scary shit.

im struggling like mad here. im making lots of mistakes. im hurting myself constantly. im scared as all get out. theyre all too close. im waaay too stupid. they know they can take advantage i know that they do. i … Continue reading

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off to market, a real bargain, i promise.

im so weak. a broken frond, attached to nothing. my head is swimming, and i don’t know if it’s from being up all night, or if this is just me now. they say it’s not normal to deal with all … Continue reading

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half blood.

each day i think of what else i can share to make me more accessible, less private, more available, less yours. my goal is complete removal of anything you. really, most things me as well. if nothing is shared alone, … Continue reading

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drugged dame gone “boink”

it’s the perfect amount ‘cept my stomach hurts.. i don’t want to feel anymore i want to stop hurting. my eyes are closing and im falling asleep thinking all these new things,, possibilities, of lives i don’t really want.. but … Continue reading

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catatonic

up by fright at four a.m. no place to go from there, huddled by self in tolls of hell Still dreams of ghosts live here… so sit i still with book in hand perhaps others words dulls real, try in … Continue reading

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play me some blues, then make me stop feeling…

sometime between then and now, i became really really not ok. its not just my head, or my body, or whatever is left of my tattered useless heart. i think it might actually be my soul. whatever that means… soul… … Continue reading

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