it feels so empty.

i had to ask forgiveness in the street.

like a beggar.

its what i am.

and i wish i had learned more

gratitude specifically

so that even alone,

i could feel better.

i kept wondering

what he would think

about

stuff..

and i just know he didnt judge.

and just showed me love.

and patience,

and the understanding that i could be

something great

even if i made mistakes.

and that those mistakes were usable.

and that i was

worth.

im sorry i didnt show enough respect.

im honored i got the little i did.

im not thinking of anything else.

because theres no point

to anything else.

i just wish i hadnt walked home

alone.