i wake up at night like this

so alone

shaking all over

scared of my thoughts

stuck in the nightmares

and not really knowing

where this world begins

and they end…

and i wish so much

i had my person

who i could hold on to

or who would have woken me

before it got so bad,

who would hold me

and my thoughts.

and all the horror

that i am

and just love me.

just love me.

that’s all.