i realize im pathetic.

and stuck

and alone

in my

aloneness.

i know theres nothing there.

cause everyone else

fares better

without me.

im aware that i am stupid.

a typical

dumb

dumb girl

who thought she was worth

more

than you let me know

i am.

i see that theres relief.

cause i am just a problem

and if the world can spin

without that drama

why would anyone

make it

stop.

i know.

i know all this.

and i wish i could scoop my brains out

of this useless little head

and keep on

moving

on.

but i,

i,

am not,

that lucky.