Monthly Archives: September 2019

worthless and less each day.

i disgust me. in all that i am, in the ways that i sit, in the shape ive become, in the tests that i fail.   i abhor my very being. my body, my soul, the air that i crave, … Continue reading

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death and the scullery maid.

im so sad and its swallowing me up and i didnt need that. any of that. im so alone, and so unattached, and just drowning here- in my own useless life.

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lollypops

im done with guilt. i have none of it. its a dangerous ingredient in a screwed up world. i need to breathe and learn to love me, and pour my love into someone who counts, and will love me back … Continue reading

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make believe.

gone forever in a cloud of smoke where you always refused to believe it would go and i know to my depths it never was anything more.

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ill just

be silent here in tepid space laid out to dry alone, where comics stand upon my back and laugh at break of bone, and arms outstretched to painted love and sands that covered dreams, bend backwards now in useless show … Continue reading

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an enigma wrapped in toilet paper.

so much pain. so much tired. i cant change enough to be what anyone will ever want. i just need to disappear cause i dont like to look at myself, and i dont like to feel, and i just want … Continue reading

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narcissist

in dreams maybe. not in reality. and i am %100 completely real.

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