so much pain.
so much tired.
i cant change enough
to be
what anyone
will ever
want.
i just need to disappear
cause i dont like
to look at myself,
and i dont like
to feel,
and i just want to hang my hat up
and stop
breathing
and stop trying
cause i am just
not worth
enough.
i see that
so clearly
it almost makes me
want to go back..
and bow my head
and bend over
and cover it all up
and accept the collar,
the earring,
the brand,
and cut away
this impoverished soul
so this dented ego
could never grow,
and id be exactly what you wanted
and id never be me
and that would be just
perfect.
cause i,
am an utter
waste.