Monthly Archives: September 2019

my heart is broken. as is my spirit. i know my worth and i know my lot. the cruelty of the truth is slow and succinct. i know what i pray for because i know what is. i thought i … Continue reading →

im so scared. the leaves are going to change. they’re already starting. and they’re going to fall. and im going to see it all alone. in a world where nobody notices. and then there’ll be nothing left. just like me.

i think it’s all a lie and it’s just me drowning here in this warped flat world of never was.

i went tonight. i knew youd come, and you did. i felt you, i did. your crazy friend- with mismatched shoes held me- but not as tight, as you. it had been some time, too much time, too much, and … Continue reading →

i wonder if my tears are worth anything, or if this shaking will ever stop. im cold and im tired and im sad beyond words. i know what its like to live in this tunnel, where my back is bent … Continue reading →

im so sad and so alone and nobody understands… and the thing is, i don’t think anyone ever will again.

Like a flower without water.

i disgust me. in all that i am, in the ways that i sit, in the shape ive become, in the tests that i fail.   i abhor my very being. my body, my soul, the air that i crave, … Continue reading →

im so sad and its swallowing me up and i didnt need that. any of that. im so alone, and so unattached, and just drowning here- in my own useless life.

im done with guilt. i have none of it. its a dangerous ingredient in a screwed up world. i need to breathe and learn to love me, and pour my love into someone who counts, and will love me back … Continue reading →