im so scared

and so sad

and so sure

that it’s all just gone

and it’s making me

a kind of nauseous

i didn’t know

i could get

like there’s no point

and no value

to anything

anymore

and what does it matter

if im here

or not

and what does it matter

if I ever

was

cause in all this

all i get

is that im worthless

and that’s all.