Monthly Archives: May 2019

I was in your arms. and it was perfect. small in big hard against soft. then i woke and you were gone. and i was alone. forever.

there’s nothing crueler. i’ll just wait here. and either time will take me or this pain will. cause you won’t. not ever. and there’s nothing crueler than that.

what’s the point? i hadn’t had enough pain? you needed to prove something to me? that you win no matter what? that they get off scott free, and i lay once again in the pile of excrement that was planned … Continue reading →

we breathe the same air. at least theres that.

like im shrinking in solitude with the misunderstanding of all the basics of who i am by all those that should know at least the basics of me. and the lack of hand in mine, the lack of heart or … Continue reading →

if it rained what i felt with each breath i took, the earth would be devoid of life- and the very grass that lies as cover would harden and turn to fuel.   if the ground could swallow all that … Continue reading →

not love not loyalty not someones heart not someones life not ever a want strong enough that i am ever it. my worth can be counted in the invisibility of that. or, maybe, in the swing of a belt or … Continue reading →

when words leave and I sit so small with shaky hands and sad eyes and those scared feet in tiny world curled up in fright with unfinished love and empty womb ‘neath weeping heart while my dreams of you disappear…

tired of me just trudging along no sleep no smiles no real no air. so i lay, and drift, and dont dream, anymore. cause whats the point in that.

i know what we would look like and it would be beautiful. and our world would be filled with magic and love and i know you know it too.