i cant sleep anymore.

its all too much

and i have no comfort

or hope

from anywhere.

so my body drifts

and my mind keeps

its worries

and my soul

just wanders

as i think it always

may.

and the endless words

and streams of thought

that i used to place

where i thought

they belonged

just whirl inside

till they make me crazy

or leak out

where they never

should.

so here i lay

in this terrible light

with these lousy words

not enough.

and i feel im

being laughed at

or getting my dues

cause i dared to reach

for what could never be mine.

and in this laughing light

i know im not worthy

and it was always just me

in that dream.