im so tired

and sad

and i woke up

alone

and every day is a battle

and i made stupid mistakes

and i want to stop wanting

i need to stop wanting

i wish i didn’t know

i wish the impossible

was possible

i hate this feeling

i hate being weak

i hate being small

i hate being me

because i

am incomplete.

i know that now.

and so i am so

deeply

deeply

sad.