im drowning

here.

in a sea

of my own

self inflicted

need to stay

in a mess

of inorganic

decomposing

deconstructed

never was

but now is

way

way

way

way too far

to go back now

and unhappen

un-involve

un-interupt

that little slice

of skin thin

life

that i

almost

never

had.

-had i been

that

brave.