kinda freaking out here.

i need something i dont have

and i dont know how

to possibly replace it.

and you keep pushing.

desperately

hurting me

each time.

i know its not real

i know its just dreams

of a life

that isnt

mine.

and yet

here i sit

just wanting more

of that awful

breathless

life.

cause im here

in pain

alone

unshed.

and ive,

got,

nothing.

nothing.

n o t h i n g.