fuck this.

is this how its meant to be?

a hand for a second?

a squeeze and thats all?

a moment of breath

in a sea of salt haze?

and then this?

alone?

a l o n e ?

all the fucking time?

i cant do this forever. i cant.

its too damn disturbing

too rawly uneven

and in that hour of shock,

in that hour of truth

of blood sucking, hair counting, lip biting-

.truth.

it hurts.

it HURTS.

so

so

so

bad .

so bad.