Monthly Archives: June 2012

i really need now i really do so much so its hard to say and im not even sure what or how or when or why or even if i can: but the feeling i get is that the feel … Continue reading →

to be where lovely willow grows by lovely shaded shore where sloping roof and wrapping porch meet ends with wooden floor jam on bread and tea in morn lays way for love filled day and promises of lifetime joys push … Continue reading →

im so dulled right now. so so dulled. ill get through the night like this. i hope. i am a rock. i am a mother fucking island. simon and garfunkle had it partway right. but this rock feels pain. this … Continue reading →

want to hold you soft and tight and kiss your tears away whisper what you need to hear and place love where you lay touch your fingers, stroke your hand feel you hold on tight move with you to loves … Continue reading →

i can tell you that right now im here alone just biding my time till it ends and the night- the night is long and i just dont know what to do with myself. amazing how sometimes, there arent enough … Continue reading →

drunk as bat shit. need to feel pain. something other than what im feeling. i cannot take this. i cant. i just cant. how fucking cruel is this world? tell me. no. dont tell me. i think i just might … Continue reading →

handing in my cards today, admitting worn defeat, hearing the bang of the great send off, above my hearts own beat. not gonna stay where im not needed, not gonna fight anymore, not gonna turn a beautiful dream, into a … Continue reading →

just so stuck inside this mess a worn out aching well just waiting for that final page for fates dark damning bell so alone and so unsure of how ill last the day without a light, without a love to … Continue reading →

i am so sad. its so hard. im so alone. i cant breathe here. its too fucking hard. i dont know what to do. i feel so small. and so unkept. unheld. undone. just hold me. please. hold me. feel … Continue reading →

so tired tonight and so badly just want to curl up in your arms and be held till i fall asleep and dream those dreams i always do only this time when i wake id wake to you. yup that … Continue reading →