i dont think i can do this

i dont think im strong enough

im so alone

i dont want to be alone

cant you see that?

i know i push love away

i dont think i deserve it

and i dont know how to receive

but i want it.

i do.

so much.

i hate that i am where i am

and i hate that you are where you are

when all i want

is to be with you.

fuck me.

yeah,

just that.