im so sad.
so very, very sad.
i feel empty,
so empty.
and alone,
so alone.
and id like so much
to be with someone
that could love me
the way i am
so damaged
and such a failure
and so, so bad
at being part of
a pair.
but i want to be
i want to learn
how to love
but most of all
how to be loved.
and im so scared.
all the time.
all the g-d damn time.
and i hate it.
so much.
and i lose.
i lose.
because
ive never learnt
to give me.
and so i dont.
but i want to
i want to
and the only way
i ever will
is in someones arms.
and i know that.
i do.
and it hurts
to need.
so badly.
where are you?
come find me
please.
because i need
to love.
you.
and be loved
by you.
so much.
i dont deserve it.
i know i dont.
but im dying here.
alone.
so alone.
so alone.
lifeofawillow 
I have been a silent admirer. I am not a writer or a poet, but my daughter’s first love is creative writing and she is constantly contributing to fanfiction. I came across your poems, and have enjoyed them so much, because you are able to articulate deep feelings and struggles too many people are not even aware of. Today’s poems are particularly moving. Hang in there, and keep sharing. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
im happy you appreciate and enjoy. thank you for the kind words. and thank you for reading.
I apologize for the delay in response. Thank you so much.
Thank you so much. I appreciate your presence.