so much,

i want to be there

so much.

and do whats right

and not feel

like the worlds caving in

and like im trapped

between

myself

and the impossible

i so badly

want to breathe

and hold you

every step

and be

with you

every day

id like to stop

thinking

and failing

the way i do

i hate it so

and you deserve better

much

much

better.

and i

i do too.

i do.

if only i believed

in me

enough

to give you

me

then i

would finally

have you.