i hate how much im hurting

i hate even more why

sometimes

i just cant stand who i am

and who im not

and the fact that im not the person

i should probably be.

i hate feeling lonely

and tortured

and like i torture others

by just being me.

its like some awful cosmic joke

where the whole fucking world

is laughing

at me.

and im just standing in the wings

and watching it all

go down

in flames.