Monthly Archives: February 2011

id like to flower. i would, i would. id like to be rained on, and be soaking wet for hours. id like to feel a million wonderful things, id like to think. period, thats all. id like to be hugged … Continue reading →

i wish i werent so sad. but i am. i try to shake it, ignore it, confuse myself into thinking that im not, but i am.  i would like to be happy, really, i would. i would like to enjoy … Continue reading →

sometimes its hard to breathe.  hard to think of what could have been. hard to think of whats yet to be. to think of losing without having known what you’ve really lost is more frightening than one would think. to … Continue reading →

im tired. really tired. mostly of me. i need to move my butt and do something. lots of somethings. i need to feel success. to achieve, to climb. at the very least, i need to keep busy. really, really, busy. … Continue reading →

in a hazy stupor, with life too much to handle, i do what im supposed to do. or close to it. or something like that. take it in, give it out, smile and nod. or just nod. whatever. i feel … Continue reading →

in the soft light of moon, the world seems so small, i bare my soul and lay down my heart. come morning light and it all seems so harsh, an unwelcome vision of reality’s pain. raw and unyielding, without very … Continue reading →

ate the soup, ate the bread, washed the occasional dish. played with my boy, changed my clothes and focused my thoughts on the now. all the while, racing ahead, through endless possibilities in my mind. of rushing brooks and cabins … Continue reading →

sometimes things suck. thats all there is to it. even the mavens will tell you, “what a bummer”. if only theyd add a dude in there it would sound so much more authentic. youve got the one, you need the … Continue reading →

with seeping echoes of tired spent selves, we part and go our ways, watering down the heavy breathe and soaping away the remains. full yet not sated, feeling a lull, a chasm so deep that i smart, i turn up … Continue reading →

waving hands to mediocre music in a car with heated seats. enjoyed the movie, appreciated the truths even felt a tug or two. feeling somewhat invisible once as always and dying to just get out, always being told that responsibilities … Continue reading →